Cancer???

FYI - so much of the last week have been a blur of doctors and information so I am sorry if I miss something.. I am doing my best.

I went home in disbelief and started calling my family to tell them the news. While waiting for my dad to come to my house I told Kyana the news.. She started crying, I held her trying to comfort her and not cry myself. I told my dad the news, he of course joked about it and said he would be there to help...

I went to Dr. B my oncologist on Thursday and was informed that either they will be able to remove it with surgery or have to shrink it with chemo and radiation and then try and remove the tumor. But other then that there was not much she could tell me with out more information so she set me up appointments for another EGD with ultrasound and another full abdominal CT scan with contrast.

On Friday I enjoyed going out to dinner with my mom and dad and kids and then we went back to their house and ate ice cream and watched a movie. We tried to enjoy the rest of the weekend with the family and going to church. My entire family fasted for me on Sunday, I could not be more grateful.

On Monday morning I woke up knowing I had my next EGD with ultrasound to tell me what kind of cancer I had and how extensive it was. I got there early and was informed that the doctor was running behind. Me and my mom sat in the room for over 4 hours waiting for our turn. When the procedure was finally finished and I kind of woke up the doctor came in and told me that the tumor starting at where the stomach attaches is 9cm long and 17mm thick and covers my esophagus 2/3 the way around (kind of like a hot dog bun) and I would need to shrink it before they would be able to remove it.

I went home devastated and mad I was hoping that it could just be removed and then chemo and radiation to resolve any left but I was wrong, I would have to do it all.

I woke up Tuesday morning early for my next full CT with contrast after choking down the glow in the dark stuff. Everything went fine until I came home and started crying I think it all was finally hitting me.. I was sad that my kids would have to deal with this... I was mad that this happened to us... I was scared on what I was going to do with my kids, house, bills, myself. I spoke to 2 of my sisters and they helped me try to calm down and decided that we will have to have a family meeting after I see Dr. B tomorrow...

Now you are up to date on my life so far with cancer... I will find out tomorrow what the game plan for treatment is.. wish me luck!!